Been lost the whole week of repeating my daily routine.
work. eat. sleep.

it just doesn't seem right. the life of a perfectionist. Been wanting to chill out and flood myself with companies of you, you and you. But everyone seems to be bustling around this season of joy.

And somehow it seems everyone has taken me for granted.

Well, i finally found the answer of fixing up certain things. I went for some retail therapy and bought a couple of stuffs which cost me $200. I went for yummilious food that blew off another couple. But i still feel something's not right. All these sensual goodies cant filll the vacuum i have inside me.

it's just not right.. I scream.

the answer lies in finding myself all over again and using more of my brains to feel your beautiful soul. sorry if i had cause you pain but i havent yet explained it cause i'm searching.. for the answer that will cure my feelings of imperfectness.

today during class, i found half of my answers i've been searching for. And that's you.

{.Your love is extravagant.}




The world revolves.
I am still
falling into the depths of silent living
Maybe i'm tired
of busily doing nothing;
Or perhaps tired of imitating
the wolf that howls in the cold.
Cooping up with sleepless dreams
And words that seem nothing more than mere thoughts
Distant thoughts.

Everything centralises.
I am lost
I don't wanna hear your voice
I don't wanna go to your parties
I don't wanna see you
That's the scream
the scream of loneliness.

6 weeks has passed
It's just me you see inside
Someone not complaining anymore
Someone lost in the secular
Frantically finding the exit
But it seems all hope is lost
when friday doesn't come.

I'm fallin' in and apart.
I'm dying..
till i find myself.

{.Your love is extravagant.}





lunch gathering for HSBC. wheeee. that's crystalbelle and annabelle outside one fullerton.

so you thought we had lunch at one fullerton? nah. we had yummilicious food at an indonesian restaurant beside cafe iguna.you just gotta try it.

that's marc, me liping and keith.and there's rita, garima, maria and trelly. my darling collegues.

after the super nice foooood, sorry we'only left you with erm.. all that.

so youuu thought that was my plate? ahaha. nice try.

me & liping. uncle, honey lemon two!

after the meal, everyone's guessing how much it cost.. see the commotion.

{.Your love is extravagant.}





on the way to siti's house after work on sat for a funfilled hari raya time. that's me & mel.


as the ride was pretty long and i was erm.. kinda bored. we drove pass the warren and after a couple of busstops, we got off.

siti's house was crowded with her relatives and us. muahaha. they malay kids were watching this chinese hong kong film show, can u believe it? haha.

the buffet was soooo yummy yummy. they should have started their own cafe with all the delicacies like rendang, sambal prawns, satay, kuek lapis chocolate chip, curry puffs, honey cornflakes, blueberry juice, mee soto, and alot alot alot of food which i cant pronounce or rather i wonder wad is it called.

although it was spicy, and i can't take spicy butttt i just cant resist the prawns can i?

it was definately an eye opener to celebrate hari raya. oooh i lurrrve it. it's so fun, so yummy, so exciting. her house was kinda special, it has a huge kitchen and i mean huge, the size of maybe my room? and there were photos all framed up on the wall with money notes in it. I guess it sorta states the time line ehh. interesting hee.
today was the first day i jump into lot 1. hahaha.

{.Your love is extravagant.}























{.Your love is extravagant.}





i want this. i want it NOW! rub* rub* now grant me my wish, genie oh meanie.

{.Your love is extravagant.}




shucks. i'm starting to act like a spoilt brat. i guess i've stayed too long in my comfort zone. After a forceful leap into a foreign place, i'm starting to be blinded by everything good out there. Be it right in front of me, i just cant see it. I'm lost. I can't keeep complaining about how bad work is. I can't keep speaking words of unwholesome talk. I can't be soo politically correct yet incorrect just to save my soul. Someone stop me from falling apart.

God draw me close. I never wanna lose you.
i want to give you more, all praises you deserve.
you're holy and you're righteous.
i want to listen more, to your spirit's call.
jesus you are God, high above all else.
consume me.

Nothing sweeeet ever comes from listering life.
nothing moulds when nothing falls
nothing forms when nothing breaks
nothing strong when nothing suffers
i believe that everything happens for the good of me, to form, to mould, to make me strong. However, nothing is easy in accordance to your will. Be it yours and not mine.
living life to the greatest glory.

{.Your love is extravagant.}




woke up early at 640 by my alarm and i saw nad's sms "meet at 7am." I was shocked cuz it was supposed to be 730am. aaahhh. then i jumped out of my bed, get all ready and took a cab that cost my whole day's allowance to changi airport terminal 1.

When i arrived at 7am, guess what? there wasn't anyone there only an influx of indians which i've never came across.. a whole lot of them. After that i had to call everyone up and allll were sleeeping. aaahh. like silly me. i had only 5 hours of sleep. in my boredness, i roamed the whole of terminal 1 from the ntuc to the departure to the arrival hall.

Until mira arrived at 740am.
Look at her, so pretty right? That's her with her father's friend's kid. Mira's the nanny of the day. hahaha.

that's me and the other half of the kiddy. but i ain't a nannnnnny. isn't she cute? both of them loooves chocolates.

at 9am, send her off. joyce & jason bought her pandan cake. Funny, she wasn't allowed to enter the main entrance to the inside of the terminal to await for the flight. They had to go thru this slightly smaller door at the left for all indians. They went thru a check to check for knifes, lighter and body search. then they were allowed to proceed to the counter to stamp their passports. then, gone.

bye bye meeeraaaaaa.
what a sunday morning.

{.Your love is extravagant.}





The jungle freeeeze from fish & co marks the number 1 day. grin*

{.Your love is extravagant.}




can i have the honour of taking you on a tour around the executive's club..

firstly, that pool of green is the singapore river. This is the city area, often known as CBD.

the view from the top, at the far end of my 845. you can see the ride that drives your heart to stop a beat.

the shorties on the left, the tallies on the right. that's boat quay on the left.

this is the end of the sightseeing tour - "view from the top" now lemme introduce the tourguide.. tada* yours truly.

my collegue, jase, the zi nian kwung.

there... i told yooou.

liping (xiao zhu zhu), jase (xiao ser), adorable meeee.

spot the difference.
happy birthday pinky!!

jimmmmmy. he's sooo deprived for a cigar. to smile just give him one.

during the break.. that's nura. she cant be seeen eating at this time of the day. guess why? clue:f_s_ing.

End of the whole morning.. off to rush for lunch which i ended up having my tapao duck rice at 430 after meeting. boo.


{.Your love is extravagant.}




On a bright thursday morning, guess who i saw giving out flyers on my way to clifford centre?

sleepy me met tania and manda at 820 am in the morning. so i'm not to blame for that drowsy look i'm giving you there. hee*. While waiting for 9 to come, we were happily taking shots of us over and over again until i had to leave for work. boo!

After that we had lunch together with glenn and daphne is her name?? at yoshinoya. glenn is super super lame. he was trying to relive the autumn moments by pouring multitudes of red pepper into the yellowish cup of water. "See, the pepper is sinking to the bottom." He's sooo funny. Daphne keep laughing at almost everything which is what i needed to lift my spirits. haha. manda smelt like cigars all cause of not wanting to wash her jeans after a night of clubbing. na* was as usual the sweet little self. btw, huang na case is so saddening. don't guys too have emotions, esp one who has 2 kids?!

Anyway, thanks for brightening up my day.

{.Your love is extravagant.}





Watched Made In Singapore with sel, rach, mira and my family on the 22nd oct.

On the way to meet the gals..

eeeeeeeek. wonder what she saw?!

Enjoying our mrs field's illegally even before the show started. during the show, we kept laughing hsterically. It's beacuse of sel and her 'problem kneeee'. haha. but what in the whole of that guy wearing? He wore something a female opera singer in the 60s will wear. maybe he's a metrosexual? or gay? eeeeek. haha
After the show.. as usual, toilet break. And let the picture speak a thousand words.

was sitting beside rach. the rachys rox.

If you still cant figure out what i'm trying to say.. wells. just a question. can you spot mira?

can you seeeee the light?

no?! what do you mean no? but yah.. haha. she's not in the photo. she's in the handicapped toilet. oorrrhh. caught you mira!
After that, we went on to visit the esplanade museum.

the esplanade shoe..

1030pm, it was pouring heavily. walked in the rain to marina mandrin to find sel's car. after walking a couple of rounds, we finally found it. bluuuur.
we head on to chai chee kopitiam for supper, or rather dinner. And mira kept saying she doesn't need the umbrella cuz it's near her house. logical? can someone link it for me? alamak. mira and her silly self.

I enjo0yed the day soo much. Thank you girls for coming down and making the night so fun-filled and rubbishy. haha. It was the best day after the start of SIP. And the 2nd best day? was the day i passsssed my driving. and the 3rd best day? heeex. i got my license yesterday! wheeeeee.


{.Your love is extravagant.}




On my brudder's birthday, we had dinner at sakura.

I had squid and more squids. haha.
andrew hint hint*


juice.. overflowing of juice and more foood.


aaahhh. no more fruits! boo

happy vs grumpy.

how come everyone is looking everywhere else and not at the camera.. do you feel that they are staring at youuu?

bro: don't you say you cant see my teeth cuz i'm smiling till my face is gonna crack.

lemme introduce the foursome. the chey, the shock, the dude, the happy.. erm.. where's the little.

there! the little.

finally, comes the cake. happy birthday! don't you just wanna dig into some baker's inn?

After all these happy moments.. comes the bad news. i shan't say much just let the picture speak.

That's my night.

{.Your love is extravagant.}




After hearing about exciting big sale at Expo, i decided to try my luck. Drove to expo for the metro warehouse sale. I bought yummy toggggi! my favourite. rocks! haha. 2 packets for $8. geeez. save money$$. girl's natural instinct.

oh u know guys think of money saving as not spending it at all, while the girls think they save money by spending less on an item. hahax.

driving is alot of fun. but i guess i havent any sense of direction cuz i din know my way back home from expo. bleah. my best friend currently is mr road directory. He leads the way home and finally i got home.

Currently down with fever and flu. Kept yawning the whole morning since 'woman' class till service. No that it was boring but i totally was worn out and super duper tired. but funny how i didn't managed to when i drove out for lunch from church. grin*

This weekend has been longer than usual probably because i didn't have to work on sat this time. oh wells. just did my e-journal. back to work tomorrow. can someone just help clear the polluted air of my office?? the growing effect of hatred to smokers is up and on.


{.Your love is extravagant.}