slumberland.
oh i miss being in deep sleep. insommia has found its way back. so tiring not being able to fall asleep when i'm exhausted after a long day. rawrs. are there any fast relieve other than panadols?

{.Your love is extravagant.}




Yesterday was quite an achievement!

parked most properly at the firt try at a multi-storey carpark!
And i did a two lane change at siglap.. haha.
i rewarded mr Car with two lots space. Every car which went passed gave a short horn, while the passengers bow down to mr Car. whahaha.
celebrated brandan's birthday!
i had my doujiang youtiao!!
i finally know how to drive to zhi's house & back. yay!



{.Your love is extravagant.}




i think i've been drifting away quite a bit ever since i found it difficult to read the words in the midst of my fellow bunkmates. It's weird but the love is ever so strong from the air i breathe to the peace that transcends all understanding shows the overflowing of all the new mercies ever morning. Return to me, He said. I tried but there's something stuck in between that is not making way for me. Something i guess i havent placed on the altar and i've yet to know what it is. Have i been doing something more than usual that it conceives me, turning me and my priorities awkardly upside down?

Yester's cell is probably the highlight of the day. All for you, my Lord. i remember the phrase. I used to find studying so much easier and enjoyable. But these days, it's so much of a chore. I know everyone has expectations. My family, buddies, friends, accquaintances, people, even those i never knew form some sort of expectations of my being. Some expectations get too overblown that it probably stresses me out. But all for you.. everything i do, i do it not for man, for man did not create me but You.

It doesn't matter how others see it, or how no one cares how depressed i am by the certain words used on me. It doesn't matter if it's such a chore, it doesn't matter if i get bored with all the layout leaving no drips of inspiration. It doesn't matter if you no longer smile widely when you see me, it doesn't matter how tough the assignment is, it doesn't matter how irresponsible the lecturers are, it doesn't matter if you were to leave me out, it really doesn't matter at all. For everything wasn't done to please you or myself, but instead for God.

I just have to give my best. It's not gonna be easy. No one said it would, not even Superman. But he did give his best in saving the world & stomping monsters into outerspace. So help me, Lord, to do it all for You.

After having fruits at Jolyn's, i had wonderful giagantic prawns at Loretta's chalet. rocks. And i'm way glad that i finally completed my DFD assignment & found it much enjoyable to do so. Did i mention it was some bizzarre IT stuff?

{.Your love is extravagant.}




My Child...

You may not know me,
But I know everything about you ... Psalms 139:1
I am familiar with all your ways ... Psalms 139:3
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered ... Matthew 10:29 - 31
For you were made in my image ... Genesis 1:27
In me you live and moce and have your being ... Acts 17:28
For you are my offspring ... Acts 17:28
I knew you even before you were conceived ... Jeremiah 1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation ... Ephesians 1:11-12
You were not a mistake ... Psalms 139:15-16
I determined the exact time of your birth & where you would live ... Acts 17:26
You are fearfully & wonderfully made ... Psalms 139:14
I knit you together in your mother's womb ... Psalms 139:13
And brought you forth on the day you were born ... Psalms 71:6
I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me ... John 8:41-44
I am not distant & angry, but am the complete expression of love ... 1 John 4:16
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you ... 1 John 3:1
I offer you more than your earthly dather ever could ... Matthew 7:11
For I am the perfect Father ... Matthew 5:48
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand ... James 1:17
For I am your provider & I meet all your needs ... Matthew 6:31-33
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope ... jeremiah 29:11
Because I love you with an everlasting love ... Jeremiah 31:3
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore ... Psalms 139:17-18
And I rejoice over you with singing ... Zephaniah 3:17
I will never stop doing good to you ... Jeremiah 32:40
For you are my treasured possession ... Exodus 19:5
I desire to established you with all my heart & all my soul ... Jeremiah 32:41
And I want to show you great & marvelous things ... Jeremiah 33:3
If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me ... Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight in me & I will give you the desires of your ehart ... Psalms 37:4
For it is I who gave you those desires ... Philippians 2:13
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine ... Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest encourager ... 2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles ... 2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you ... Psalms 34:18
As a shepard carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart ... Isaish 40:11
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes ... Revelation 21:4
And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth ... Revelation 21:4
I am your Father & I love you even as I love my son, Jesus ... John 17:23
For in Jesus my love for you is revealed ... John 17:26
He is the exact representation of my being ... Hebrews 1:3
And He came to demostrate that I am for you, not against you ... Romans 8:31
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins ... 2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you ... Romans 8:32
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me ... 1 John 2:23
And nothing will ever separate you from my love again ... Romans 8:38-39
I have always been Father & will always be Father ... Ephesians 3:14-15
My question is .. Will you be my child? ... John 1:12-13
I am waiting for you ... Luke 15:11 -32

... Love, Your Dad
Almighty God

{.Your love is extravagant.}




today's Jon's baptism. it was really cool to witness a sea baptism at East Coast. I may sound suaku la, but it's my first and i think it was cool! I wouldn't wanna get baptised in the sea though.. reason being there are like alot of fishes, & i've got phobia of the sea & the sea water is salty.. & blah..

haha. Oh, Jon had this niece who is really adorable. I sat beside this little 5 year old at tong lok, playing scissor paper stone, ti-ti-kiap, enjoying dim sum.
she somehow reminded me of myself & i believe i'm not picked up from some rubbish bin or adopted k. I went home flipping through the pages of my childhood album. I guess it shows how much i grew, that i can't fit into my favourite sailor dress anymore. I'm not gonna say that I don't wanna grow old, but I think it's good to stay young and I can't wait to grow cause there's so many things in life that I've not experience. I wanna buy my lexus SC430 & get married & have an adorable little girl like Dana.

On another note, I'm finally done with the layouts for the testimonials but i ain't sure if it's exactly nice. It looks just alright tho. I mean how to make a whole chunk of words not look wordy?


the revamp of the trespass!

{.Your love is extravagant.}






woooooot! happy birthday my 20 year old pal! smiles ahead!

{.Your love is extravagant.}







No Trespassing! says the gate.

who cares if we get all excited over our primary school?
who cares if we ever did miss school?
who cares if we grew up and started smoking?
For no one from the outside will be inside
So no one knows we act all retarded.. whahahaha. okie. gibberish.

{.Your love is extravagant.}




when i reach zhi's house at 2pm, which was somewhat late cause we arranged to start the meeting at 1315. But to my amazement, noone was there, which means i was early!! whahaha.

i kinda forgot what i wanted to blog. oh no!

but anyway, i seem to not have enough time to do everything i intended to do. Time seems to pass faster or maybe i'm doing my stuff at a much slower pace, but somehow, it doesn't seem to be so.

things that need to be done:
1)study for upcoming tests
2)prep for news critic assignment
3)do tutorial hw
4)publication pages for my cell & the layout for testimonies
5)go tanning with belle
6)pedicure with cia
7)2:7 hw

actually not many stuff to do after all.. but how come i don't have enough time to complete it. what's happening? maybe i should start to sleep now, and wake up early at 10ish, wake zhi up too.
And start..er.. which should i do first?


{.Your love is extravagant.}




The F at Hotel Rendezvous

there she was
lying still
lifeless on a stand alone
withered and cold
muddy gel wriggled
she sneezed
a sudden blindness
thoughts roam
designs accumulate
brought about a prose

"are you ready?" yelled the beautician.



hahaha.. think straight.
this is actually part of the poem. Don't ask me for the other part cuz i've already forgot about it. Shwan reminded me like 5 hours later to pen it down. i thought of this poem while having charcoal mask on my face at hotel rendezvous. i was shivering & blinded by the cold charcoal mask that covered my entire face. My nose was itchy, but i couldn't reach for it. haha.

oh, it is actually kinda fun being blinded fow a while, you will tend to use other senses to feel your surroundings and i think i'm getting better at it. rocks! Also did i mention, it is the only time where i'm not distracted by the things around me and thoughts just slowly fill up my head. it's nice to feel serene. Maybe it's good i'm going to perth, where the swan lake is. i can well imagine lying on the grass with the sun over my head, and it's just such a beautiful day!

And i thought of the whole design for fellowship committee page already. yay! hahaha. oh did i mention, i deleted the layout for fellowship comm thrice la, and i left my laptop adaptor in the car, and the car's at tanjong pagar.. and i have to go for publication with a hibernating lappy! rawrs.

I'm a non-punctual girl. i'm disgraced. I used to arrive 5 to 10 mintues early but i guess i'm seriously gonna be late now..

{.Your love is extravagant.}




Oh man! i abhor what the want of money does to the soul.

today i attended my first tutorial for marketing management & business process analysis.

i'm extremely dissappointed.

how does it feel to have spent a couple of days writing a marketing plan that in turn, the tutor just shake it off by saying.. "wha.. the question so cheem, we shall skip it."
i'm kinda pissed.

firstly, the tuition fees are so expensive.
secondly, your final grades are moderated & you have to expect a 62% to 65%. so if you get 80%, you can go rule the world!
Thirdly, to enter you need certain standard.. which implies that the school is of certain value.

but yet, the tutors are just the 'anything also can la. Just don't spoil the market with your presentation by giving out notes in files to your classmates and expect me to give you a high grade. And also, for tutorials, don't need to do the questions, just read though can already.
Three-quarter of the time, he asked us to guess his profession. It was good as an ice-breaker but 45mins??!!

Please teach for passion and not for the money. The want for more money kills the soul.

seriously, i want mr jeffrey ho, ms reena ng and dr arnold tan backkkk.

aaaahh. i wanna scream.
i regret not studying even harder and getting better GPA, and not missed the application dateline for NUS!!
i can't stand it. i can't stand it!

guess i expected too much but i shall learn to give all my expectations to God.
God, i wanna complain!!! rawrs.

{.Your love is extravagant.}

chuili treated a whole bunch of us to seoul garden last sunday! it was tiGgerific! although, i personally do not like the smell of seoul garden, i had fun. And the company took away all that smell. hmmmmm.

It was great having everybody, almost everybody there feasting at a table, cooking meals for each other, caring & sharing & laughing away all the woes. We even dreamt of having our very own shlom cook house, where eve is the noodlicious fryer, pek does the deserts of ice kachang & such, jolyn does the apple crumble and pies, and i do the brownies! esta, the main cook la, needless to say. haha.

as we watched the (oh no.. wad's the white thingy?) popped and exploded on the stove, we laughed like crazy la. and oh.. if ur wondering why esta & i are terribly happy, wait till you see the unknown missing identities...



yay. i had a wonderful day.

And this closes the blessed weeked i had!

{.Your love is extravagant.}




oh well. i think i do.. but then again, maybe not.
lemme count and seee...



my earrings collection of which only features the hanging ones. the studs account to another 30 of it. which means my earrings can last for 2 months, wearing a different one every day. But why do i often wear certain earrings?

well, some earrings are difficult to match, while some are seasonal. like you wouldn't expect me to wear a pair of santas on my ears during happy easter day right?

my ears are pretty sensitive, hence, i wasted buying wooden studs. i have a pretty koala ear stud and i lurve it. but i can only wear it for like 2 hours before my ears will start to bleed. it's crazy!

well, i know i have alot of earrings, but i can't wait to get more! hahaha. come to think of it, i don't usually buy them, most of them are given, and those that are bought are simply unique & bought overseas just like my belts.

to me, the easiest colour pairs of earrings would be those in lime green! alright! i'm late for studying.. gotta run!

{.Your love is extravagant.}

the day started with 8 hours of lecture on business proces analysis. super boring can?! but i can't wait for HRC.
after which i met dearie to buy cow's necklace and collect the chocolate addiction from n.y.d.c. yay. i'm glad everyone of you lurve the cake. my favourite! Then, we met elliott, sel, melvin, rach c and colin and headed to HRC! yay. we are sitting right in front of the band. super cool! today, rythmic blues will be jamming & moreover, its ladies night!

alright!

Welcome to 'Anything Lime' party of the masquerades!

{.Your love is extravagant.}




it's a brand new day.
with brand new things to do.
brand new doors opens
as one of chapter of my life encloses with a nice ribbon.

i like Dr Tan. He rocks. heex.

alright. photos start from here.

gotta go for class. boo. i wanna sleeep!

And to those love coming to HRC later. yay. come faster! i wanna see you & take photos.

yawns!



we came early to register. haha.lucky i didn't come with you limjian or else i'll die stoning for the registration counter to open. hyuk hyuk* okay if ya wondering why are we more to the right, cuz the handsome guy is on the left. haha. gerald!


alright. this is the flash!


the nice stage?


my one & only ticket to turning the knob!


cheryl! simpang bedok. oh i mean.. siglap supper! hahaha.


yay. ouyang has graduated! haHA.


did eddie graduate too.. with pris cert imprinted?


yong yang! which girl are you lookin at?


oh! 4 down with 2 so only left 2 of us. kuku gab & angeline not wanting to appear at grad! botak edmund!


so who's camera were we looking at?


groupmates! haHa. my sister's favourite botak. gabbby!


rence! stay strong k and i shall continue wacking ur arm till ur injection fully recovers. haha evil grin*


funky sickly eugene still grinning from ear to ear. we have graduated!


alright! tb014 rocks. and farhan too. yay


winnie!


huiyi! black or white


janos! heeez. my always lovable groupmate!


oh no... eunice, lizhen ane me! brand mgt classmates


stacey! okie.. the photo looks funny. haHa



zhang! yes.. i know ur telling me how much mentos lime you bought me.. hahA


my parents! happy faces


eileeeeeeen. thanks always for the support, i lurve you!


the accountants and statistic godess and smartypants!


this guy is super discipline and smart! he rocks


carine babe. good things come in pairs.


ahaha. arnold tan! he's like so happy i've graduated and yay. i can see him at the dog show


liwen! ahahaa. who's finger is that


uncle sam say we look alike.. hmmm. do we?


smart looking lim jian!


presenting.. the big boss!


liyan, see yooou soon babe!


guess which shoe is mine?


okie... i'm late for class. but don't you think this is a nice pic?

{.Your love is extravagant.}




The Ceremony
by Sara Rzeszutek

The girl
Sits amongst the masses
And waits for the moment
Hearing her name
Mispronounced
Into the mike
Wondering if they'll know who
She really was
Or who she really is
If they'll know that she was more than just a name
Or a GPA
Or a score
On the paper
Not knowing if she should be nervous
Or if she should cry
Or if a door would really open
As this one closed

The mother
Sits amongst the masses
And collects evidence for the
Letter
She will soon write
About the mispronunciation
And the ruckus
Yet still dabbing the tear from her eye
As the girl walks across
And she knows that her daughter was more than just a name
And a GPA
And a score
On the paper
So much more that she's probably nervous
But won't cry
And that there would be more open doors than
She could ever choose from

The father
Sits amongst the masses
Head held proudly
As his daughter shakes hands firmly
Like he taught her
And debates
Whether or not to smile
At the hooting
And hollering
But choking back what he's supposed to
While she smiles at the speeches
And he's realizing now that there's more than her name on the paper
And her GPA
And her scores
And that her clammy hands trembled
As she grasped the paper in her hands
Because she was reaching the doors he had told her about
And she'd have to choose

The teacher
Overlooks the masses
Stone face grows older each year
And wonders if she really learned all
She tried to teach
But is confident
That she made a difference
Because the girl smiled as
They listened to the speeches
And she winked as the tassel turned
Because she learned that the name meant nothing
Nor did the GPA
And the scores
And she knew she'd be nervous
Because she'd seen her blush so many times
But that she'd walk through the threshold regardless
Since she was at the next step

And the girl
Finally free
Turns the knob with ease.

{.Your love is extravagant.}







{.Your love is extravagant.}




the fact is, i'm scared.

the number is slightly bigger than i thought it would be. slowly, everyone starts to wish me not 'happy birthday' but "happy being an adult".

Another sign of ageing would be the fact that many around me are getting older. See the funky glasses all coming up on their faces, the words of "before i forget, i had better wish you happy birthday in advance". And i laugh at the first time i saw this, and then it happen thrice after that. It's not just me, that's ageing, haha. i'm comforted.

i guess growing older bring about more resposibilities. You are supposed to take care of your health, study for your exams and get good grades without having people to nag at you. See the doctor when you're sick and stand up for your own rights, and not rant in public, be nice to older people.

But on the other hand, comes more freedom. f-r-e-e-d-o-m shall speaks for its own. for example freedom to travel around the world, freedom to earn your keep, freedom to spend, freedom to shop online.

okay. i'm pissed. extremely. rawrs. just when i thought it's gonna be great on saturday that i can't wait. the lady called me saying the lion's den is fully booked on sat, and she thought i booked it for fri instead. OHno! how now? i already bought all the stuff, dream about it, but it's the dream just burst. alright. i know. at least i wont have to worry about how to collect money anymore, can use the discount card to pay for the service charge, the plan will still go on right, just that maybe they will regret it for not giving us the bar.. haha. because we will be rowdy, looking funky and COOL. iMAGINE that.

i guess everything has a good and a bad side to it.

And yes, all those who have not rsvp. you better do so by today, or else, i'm terribly sorry that you have to queue for your table instead. okay. i'm still pissed. rawrs. but to all who rsvp, come with the fun attitude, and expect some fun. i'm sorry you won't be able to enjoy the ambience of the bar. (=

Why I would I spend my life longing for the day that it would end..
Why would I spend my time pointing to another man..
Isn’t that crazy

How can I find hope in dying, with promises unseen..
How can I learn your way is better
In everything I’m taught to be..
Isn’t that crazy

I have not been called to the wisdom of this world..
But to a God who's calling out to me..
And even though the world may think
I'm losing touch with reality
It would be crazy
To choose this world over eternity

And if I boast let me boast
Of filthy rags made clean
And if I glory let me glory
In my Savior's suffering
Isn’t that crazy

And as I live this daily life
I trust you for everything
And I will only take a step
When I feel You leading me
Isn’t that crazy

I have not been called to the wisdom of this world..
But to a God who is calling out to me..
And even though the world my think
I'm losing touch with reality
It would be crazy
To choose this world over eternity

Call me crazy
You can call me crazy
Call me crazy

I have not been called to the wisdom of this world..
But to a God who is calling out to me..
And even though the world may think that
I'm losing touch with reality
It would be crazy, It would be crazy, It would be crazy
To choose this world over eternity

Isn’t That crazy..
Call me crazy
You can call me crazy
Call me crazy

{.Your love is extravagant.}




"You know what rach?
I always remember your birthday..

not that you're beautiful
not that you're sexy
not that you're splitchick
not that you're amazing
not that you're tall
not that you're tan
not that you're rach

BUT

but you're everything..

and..

your birthday is just after my mum's.
hahahahahaha."

alrighty! good grief. haha. or else i'd would think your some pervert. haha.

{.Your love is extravagant.}

photos for 'FOUR' are on flikc & 'X'. just some eye candy here.

happy happy eleven dear! take me away

{.Your love is extravagant.}