i tried to do head stands to clear my mind.
but as obvious as un-obvious it is, i still need frozen strawberries to numb the pain from the bruises. clearly, it seems that i have been in denial all these while.

in clarity. deep down. i definitely fell one shot deep. but yet i also know, on the other side of the coin, it's almost wishful thinking.

some... i can't respect but yet i yearn for
some... i can't trust but yet i choose to
some... i worry about but yet i commit it to the Lord
some... who gave up on me but yet i hold on, hold fast, hold out.

funny how during 'Great is Thy faithfulness' was sung, this moment of you, you were dissecting the garlic pork ribs separating the fats from the meat at crystal jade. that moment of bliss ran through my head vividly. i realised i miss that.
but also at the same time, i thank God that 'His mercies are new every morning' for He will love me evermore, not just a moment of bliss, not just a moment, but forevermore.

I know i deserve better. i know i do, even you say so.
but just for now, lemme dream.. i wish you were here with me.

{.Your love is extravagant.}






{.Your love is extravagant.}





tada... my fingers featured on the ieatishootipost. hahaha

was trying to take the fillings of the pao while holding it, and of cause the photo didn't come out right, it was shakey.

anyway, my entries for this competition... before u view them, this is a disclaimer, it's my first time learning to shoot food, gimme some leeway as well as your most constructive feedback in your kindest words. haha.






{.Your love is extravagant.}






{.Your love is extravagant.}




Cos' i love you, but i can't take it anymore
There's a look i can't describe in your eyes
Yes we could try, like we tried before
But you keep on telling me those lies

Do you remember... ?

There seemed no way to make up
'cos it seemed your mind was set
and the way you looked it told me
it's a look i know i'll never forget

you could've come over to my side
you could've let me know
you could've tried to see the distance between us
but it seemed too far for you to go

do you remember.. ?

through all of my life
in spite of the pain
you know people are funny sometimes
'cos they just can't wait
to get hurt again

do you remember.. ?

there are things we won't recall
feelings we'll never find
it's taken so long to see it
cos we never seem to have the time

there was always something more important to do
more important to say
but "i love you" wasn't one of those things
and now it's too late

do you remember.. ?

but, seriously..

{.Your love is extravagant.}




Waiting is hard, especially waiting expectantly for something to happen, something not anticipated, something unseen. waiting for dreams to come true, I'm hopeful yet uncertain. painful at times when i realise i'd probably have not moved on. I anticipate eagerly to the time we finally meet, but yet with a sense of the least expectations of any comfort to my heart-felt needs, that when we meet face to face, I forgot to smile in joy, afraid you wouldn't smile back at me. I unconsciously protected myself. but at the end of the day, serenely, I seem always filled with regrets when we part, for my confused thoughts and feelings held me back each time we meet. what's in your thoughts? I really wonder. maybe we have really drifted apart.

and this, I am beginning to accept, for there is nothing else I can look forward to without waiting in vain. in my head, it is probably time to move on, I don't know what's holding me back. i know I can't cause I've been trying for four, but He can and He will. this pain, I'm not living this moment again. now, don't come telling me I'm not being loved, I don't need that.

{.Your love is extravagant.}