what have you learn from the whole episode?

other than the fact that, when i'm low in spirits, take public transport.
i think there's another thing that answers the above question.

when i panicked, i didn't remember any verses. But one thought from the devil came to my mind, "you prayed what, but still what has happen?"

I responded.. No! Jesus loves me and He protected me. In my state of shock, i still couldn't see the joy in this situation but yet i knew i had to thank Him.

joy in the midst of trials.
God is still God, hohon said.

and today i thought about this question again.. Be still, and know that I am God.
no matter what happens, He will always provided a way out. always, my cousin cynthia said.

so much has happen around for the past 2 weeks, which really made me lose sight of Him that i felt lost and burying myself in negative emotions, thoughts and surrounding. My birthday didn't feel anywhat special, and of cause i did worry about would i receive any flowers this time.

But i'm glad i didn't. haha. Last year's flowers were the most beautiful i have ever received. Not that i receive many before, but it was not roses, and it was a bouquet. a huge bouquet of my favourite colours. It felt serene, i felt really really happy.

anyway, i'm glad i didn't receive any this year. It was better to feel secured in His love than any other temporal feeling. :) I think yesterday was a whole day of incoming birthday wishes, it was blissful. Thank you Lord, that when i felt that no one will remember or care, You send me friends to keep me going on.

thank you, Lord for being such a wonderful friend!

{.Your love is extravagant.}




i think it is such that it is a good thing that i am unable to see those pictures of him unless i deliberately search for it.

It is no longer worth my time and energy.

It hurts to care so much for a friend who doesn't at all bother to be more mature. i'll await the day when you have matured and grown in His love & strength and enjoying the abundant life He provided.

till then!

{.Your love is extravagant.}




What preoccupies you?


What are your life's priorities?
the things i spend the most time.. probably sleep 70hours a week, work 42 hours a week, playing cafe world 14 hours a week, watching lie to me; how i met your mother (on bus rides home) doing housework, having dinner with family 4-5 times a week, meeting up with friends, reading, praying, spending time with God (on bus rides to work, before sleep).


What keeps you awake at night?
i sleep early, unless i'm stress/anxious for presentation, things i thought i have not settle yet regarding work.

What obsesses you?
Obsess means...
1. to dominate or preoccupy the thoughts, feelings, or desires of (a person); beset, trouble, or haunt persistently or abnormally: Suspicion obsessed him.

2. to think about something unceasingly or persistently; dwell obsessively upon something.

it has been consistently & consciously on my mind that God is near, that He always loves me and always praying for wisdom except when i'm shopping (have no idea why).
and who am i gonna marry.

Are you a restless, aimless soul, tossed and blown about by every wind of worldliness and mesmerizing culture?
this year i think i've grown to favor nice expensive bags and have bought a few.. balenciaga holiday first, vintage YSL gauche, miu miu coffier, gucci dunno what... and more expensive clothes..

i probably should go into a rehab. the 40 day fast & prayer is timely. It's time to fast from all kinds of shopping. It's always this period when it's the GSS and birthday month discounts. what can i say? God, you know me so well. It's time to be like Paul, totally preoccupied with the things of God, the things of His kingdom (whatever this means.. thy will be done).

{.Your love is extravagant.}