ok ok, i have decided.

too late to book any chalet. no rooms.
if i were to invite everyone i know, it's gonna be a long list. and i guess there would be many cliques of people whom some would feel bored.
havent celebrated my birthday, throwing a party since the age of 13.
before the 13th, every year since birth was a party at KFC, MAc, anywhere my parents could think of. I remembered the games we played as little kids there. the straws that flew when the music started. it was fun. suddenly, i feel loved.

at 16, my classmates.. loo, karmene, chin, nicole threw a mini party in class with cakes and food and of cuz presents and fun. miss you guys.

And of cuz not forgetting my cell, shalom that never fails to bring a smile onto my face with all the joy, the cake, the presents, the surprise which doesn't surprise me but i lurve it. lurve shalom to bits.

well, no more parties since then. next year, no party too cuz i'll be buried in my books in perth. boo.

and as i have said, i've decided.
i shall play paintball, and feast at hard rock and have a chocolate addiction for my birthday cake. So who's free on the 14th to play paintball?

rawrs. everyone is working.

current mood:

{.Your love is extravagant.}

{.Your love is extravagant.}






This picture is entitled run till the sunbeams glow.

speak till your thoughts fumbles.
stare till your mind glitters.
dance till the music claps.
run till the sunbeams glow.

chase after your dreams as though many are after you.
and most importantly,
smile like your using darlie. haha.
smile like the whole world smiles with you.

It's important to stay on the bright side.
be happy cuz your day is what you made it to be.
Specially dedicated my doujiangyoutiao khakis.
don't let others get you down. esp. m-e-n
you made my world!
May the joy of the Lord with you.

{.Your love is extravagant.}





A picture speaks a thousand words. well, i have 16,000 words to say. In short, I thank God for bringing you into my path. thanks for all the fun & laughter. you will always be the sister I never had.

{.Your love is extravagant.}




hahaha. i've always like this picture. here comes my second piece of art. i think i'm hooked onto ps8. wheeeee.


did a quiz today. i seem so bored and stuck to my comp despite the busyness of the party.
the food.
the cake.
the people.
the games.
i'm extremely tired. yawns.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

{.Your love is extravagant.}




Check this out!


ooooh yeah. it's finally done!
i mean altho it took like 1 month. but it's my first time using photoshop. it looks not bad. haha. i rock! wheeeeeeeee.

thanks shawn, sel for guidance.

rawrs. woke up and i could't sleep no longer. today's dorcas' birthday. the party will commence in an hour or so. rawrs. i'm tired with all that preparation. it would be just great to see her smiling when she comes back. grin*

Oh, talking about birthday.
haha. it's mine coming. i can't wait to play paintball at the orchid. Hopefully, no one get less bruises than me on that day. sadist grin*
price (after member & etc.): $40 per person.

my birthday's coming but i'm in a dilema.
should i like have a party? i mean i won't be able to celebrate my 21st next year. So should i or should i not?
And if i do have it, where is it gonna be?
orchid's ballroom is booked.
no chalets.
sentosa a bit off the budget.

oh wells, my birthday party theme is the New Orleans Jazz.
i can well imagine it. people in fancy dresses and masks. frozen drinks and twinkle lights. oh well.

{.Your love is extravagant.}





The day's been Tiggerific.
went shopping after dental and bought sunglasses.

met up with papz & shawn for curry chicken noodles, chocolate chip cookies and mr teh tirek.



After that did some window shopping along erkine street. I saw a tube done by a local designer. think pink stripes with pink floral prints on a white base. ruffles on the front, uneven length. totally cool, but the yellow patch at the right just had to spoil it or else i'll think it'll look great on me. haha. went past Ann Siang st to asylum. Guess What I saw.. chocolates, a whole bunch of numeric chocolates.
i mean, do you know which chocolate had a number which signifies it. like 01 to 05 is milk chocolates. Then yada yada.

Singapore ain't that small after all. I enjoyed myself. Hurried back to parkway to pick up last minute groceries for the party. woohoohoo.

Alright, hafta prepare for the surprise party. but before i go.....

a tribute to my all-time classic, Tigger.
A legendary ventriloquist, Paul Winchell has pass away. No more woohoohoo's from him. Tigger's voice is gone, no? Jim Cummings shall do the job. But i'm still gonna miss Winchell.

mood: a little

{.Your love is extravagant.}




i'll be there for you
these five words i swear to you.
when you breathe
i wanna be the air for you
i'll be there for you.

Alot like love.
it's freaky, the show, the song.
i mean do the characters live reel life or real lives?
do people actually live lives like these?

i'm not surprise tho if it happens cause it just seem familiar
as i glance over the screen. I mean it's true that people go thru life similarly. But somehow, i expect it to be different. I watched the show just for the song. But i didn't think it would churn out a whole story that isn't at all kuku. In fact, alot like love rocks. Ashton look terribly hot if his guitar slung behind him, viewed from side.

but whatever it is, it doesn't even have to sound nice.
it just melts me.

surprise!!



celebrated haresh birthday at park royal. hi-tea. it was fun catching up with the trAckies. woohoohoo! i'm glad he was surprised. haha. parties are great. It gathers people together for a fun time. The day just couldn't be better.
mood:


{.Your love is extravagant.}




road blocks are a hazard and it's wasting fuel. rawrs.

first, it made boon arrive an hour late, leaving me bumming around in town. well, i tried on a couple of clothes. haha. amused.

I think you really know someone when you know what gift to get for the person. imagine shopping around without a clue.

secondly, we had to drive a big round just to get to kallang for ice cream. total waste of fuel, now that the prices of oil are increasing.. rawrs.

thirdly, no joy rides in speeding. before you know it all the people in camos just come chasing you.

i'm a happy girl.
i had my ice cream and bak ku teh today.
funny experience of the car being locked at the cathedral last night.
oh wells, what a day to end off with gastric.

{.Your love is extravagant.}




after you called
i tremor at the thought
no more turning back
i should be excited instead
been looking forward to reunite
what if it doesn't turn out the way it should be
what if you scream at me
what if..
aaaahh. i feel like running away again.
everything about you seem so right
that it scares me.
perfectionist, i am.
oh well, everything's gonna be alright.
right?

mood:

{.Your love is extravagant.}




the people who turn away are the people who forget
once fallen into the rut
feeling all down and out
that in God we could trust
the only One, not man
but how many a times
we fail to see
the new mercies every morning
that He has provided for us.
love is but God Himself
who gave His only begotten son
so that we may have life
to hope, to love, to live.

Thank You, Lord for being so faithful, even when i'm so unfaithful. i'm sorry God for not trusting you, knowing you were in control of all things. It's not about me, it never was. How selfish i was to not acknowledge your wisdom being above mine, your thoughts being far greater than mine. Help me to always remeber that you are always there for me and that I could cast all my cares unto you and help me to give it all to you, living life giving you the greatest glory, Lord. I love you.

{.Your love is extravagant.}






{.Your love is extravagant.}




i just woke up, and i'm still tired and sleepy.

yesterday was fun. the zoologist card and the zoolympics made the zoo trip even more interesting. learning is fun, when you choose it to be.
like did you know, giraffes drink water by standing with their legs apart as the neck goes lower towards the tap?




it's been eons since i've been to the zoo. like when i was in primary school or something. there were so many people there, i mean it's like a wednesday. people do work, don't they? my companions were my mum, dorcas & vika. the veg farm was interesting, the biggie it was, there. it's funny watcheing the chimpanzees do their show. it's weird thinking that humans train those monkeys to treat the trainers like kukus and make fun of them. No work's no risk man. I like the polar bear, it's of the saem height as me when it was 2 years of age, and i'm like 19. the only same thing that lies familiar was the smell. Ben & Jerry's is grEat. They had the giraffe's waffle which i didn't have. haha. but who cares, i had 3 scoops of yummy ben & jerry's. lurve it lurve it.

my favourite animal is ____________ other than the giraffes. you will be greatly rewarded if you guessed it right.

After the zoo trip ended like 4ish. headed for movie marathon which lasted till 7ish this morning. I caught you got served, hitch, the incredibles, white chicks and .. i forgot. You got served is like nice but no storyline la. the lil' saint's crew rocks. they dance great. D reminds me of worm, but worm's cuter. haha

had fun making sandwiches and milo with eve, esta, karen at like 3ish in the morning. so kuku. okie, i gotta go grab some lunch ya'll.
bounced and out.

{.Your love is extravagant.}




i'm counting down the days till i'm no longer.. a teen.

i don't wanna grow is what i always say. But today till then, i should consider embracing aging. the term sounds weird tho. Morrie used to say "aging is not just decay, you know. It's growth. It's more than the negative that you're going to die, it's also the positive that you understand you're going to die, and that you live a better life because of it." Oh, all young people should know something. If you're always battling against getting older, which happens to remind me about someone being 21 this year, yet again, you're always gonna be unhappy because it will happen anyhow. haha. i've a fulfilled life, and this time i guess i should be ready for the big O. And if you think you would help me out abit..

My wishlist is as follows:
- white knitted bikinis from buttcheeks
- a ride in the red rhino, it would be great if i could drive it.
- volkswagen beetle cabriolet
- lexus sc430, a test drive would be just fine
- nice toga top
- straw/wooden wedge
- reef pink slippers
- lime green skirt
- max lucado's thirsty
- a sony dsc t3 camera
- lime green peinted wall
- i wanna play treasure hunt.

{.Your love is extravagant.}




can you spot me?


{.Your love is extravagant.}







{.Your love is extravagant.}




i'm backkk from HK. everything's a steal. hahaha. I wanna go back when disneyland's open. wheeee.

on the way to Hong Kong! welcome to the fun side.

ah shan hostel was a blast. dinner was another blast. extremely salty fishball noodles. mongkok was good.

ah shan hotel, the "yummy" dinner and the midnight movie.


on the second day, the thunderstorm started. nonetheless, we woke up to yummilicious dim sum. the kukus came up with a guess the bill game. and the loser had to drink finish the cup of chinese tea, where half of it was filled with tea leaves. how evil.we headed to do some shopping at tsim sha shui. heh.

then we went to new world shopping centre and the avenue of the stars. However, the fireworks displayed was alittle screwed due to the weather. hence, we chilled at san francisco coffee club playing country games, forfeit was to eat up a packet of sugar/creamer. Finding toilets was a chore there. toilets only available at fast food restaurants.
the kukus things that we do.

stations.


on the third day, we visited hong kong island. I had my venetta ice cream in the rain. wheeee. we went shopping, the bakery there had nice birthday cake designs. The clutch on the mag looked so adorable, on sale for S$269. But little did i know, it appeared to be a big clutch, not the one i had in mind. i saw the braun buffel clutch selling at S$200 in HK. save 69 singapore dollars la. rawrs. Suddenly, it looked not so nice, if it were slightly smaller, i would have gotten it.After that, we headed to Victoria Peak and to Madame Tussade.
taking the tram up to victoria peak

We took a red tram up the peak. the scenic view was fabulous. hongkong's beautiful. singapore would be too if there was a higher mount other than mount faber.

At madame tussaud...


heh. Eating was a chore there. Every night, we shopped until all the shops were closed like at 1am. Then we search for food. Oh, cass & gerie, we bought you nice neat stuff. you will love it!

on the fourth day, sel & i went to the tsim sha shui to get hold of some last minute shopping and we went past the cultural centre. while the guys went to mongkok to find socks. haha.We went to Mac for lunch. I had a big mac meal with chocolate milk shake for only S$4.80. whahaha. Finding a public phone was a chore. oh guess what, hongkong only has peking goose, no duck.
So when are we gonna eat peking duck? next wed?

I headed to Zara to find my lime green skirt, once i unpack my luggage. But to no avail, the top, the jeans, the skirt is gone. rawrs.
It's the gss, i shall go shopping. cheerios.

{.Your love is extravagant.}




got home from camp this late afternoon.. phew!

caught mr & mrs smith.

And the only thing that hit me was that stale relationships can be mended.
It's the lack of intimacy that sets the couple apart.
It's the lack of communication that fills the i-don't-know-u-anymore gap.
It takes two to tango-
it takes two to keep any relationship or marriage together.
It takes two to quarrel and fight each other too.

funny how at times I cannot feel you even though you are just beside me. It just shows the lack of communication, that i don't know your soul. I don't know you that I need other people to tell me who you are. I used to think it didn't matter at all. As long as i get to see you everyday, as long as i get to be next beside you.

had doujiang youtiao with my babes: liyen, leen, qiuying.
it was good catch up. i lurve you guys to bits. free youtiao right, leen?

okie dokey. finally i get my beauty sleep.

{.Your love is extravagant.}






{.Your love is extravagant.}




all the wasted tears.
came alive when you were here.
I stayed by the same side of the sun.
The fun side
that didn't know no pain, no fear.
i wished i didn't have to know this side of the moon
To stay afloat,
i'm drifting away from the shore
crying away cause someone pierced the bubble
into somewhere deep i'm taken and
suddenly, it becomes all wasted
the tears surrounds me
i'm sinking.
i'm sinking.
heaven knows
it was all but a dream.

people cheat. people lie. people hide. where's the love the world needs? sooner, the world will be so commercialised by all the marketing gimmick that exist in the world. Take the axe oil for example, it wraps itself all around an SBS bus including the back of the seats, the actual oil bottle lies a couple at the entrance. Why does any company seek to make our lives so boring, that everywhere we go, we see the freaking oil?
Why can't Singapore just live in peace without all that advertising on roads, on SBS. I think they should ban such stuff like smoking. No advertising on public.

back to the topic. it's okay to shut people, shut things that get you down. i've learnt that. It will never stop happening, just like how the world is round and not square. It's a vicious cycle. It's no use giving two hoots about people who don't care, not even abit about your feelings, cuz it's would be a self-inflicting grief. If you love yourself enough, you would be smart enough to get over it. And I did, i hope na* will too. Sickening idiots.

Anyway, if you think that why are people so bothered with your life, think again, the ones that are were actually people who cared for you and cherish you as their friend until the deadly fact became known. While others are just busybodies, as usual. rawrs. stop messaging me thinking that it's good for me, if you don't leave your name. And it's not all that funny to start tagging stuff on blogs that are not true. Whatever it is, those people should learn to leave me alone and let me lead my own life.

{.Your love is extravagant.}




i caught hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy.
pretty interesting show.
marvin is like super cute laaa.
He's like a super depressed robot. haha.
if you need a hand, be sure to count on marvin.
wheeeee.

been ill for more than a week now.
fever, throat infection, flu on the external.
On the internal, the level's down real bad.
not exactly a fantastic week i had, but a good one.
based on the fact that everyday is a gift from God.
Thank you everyone who offered prayers for me.
God works in ways we cannot see.
And i'm having a speedy recovery.

i baked brownies today.
it's so yummy that it's running out of stock.

it's the camp week.
duane, hurry come back from japan and buy hotdog buns k!!!
okie.. gotta pack my bag.. vroom.

{.Your love is extravagant.}






{.Your love is extravagant.}




Happy May Day!

my favourite part of the day is when i walk home from the 15 bus stop in the warm cool breeze of sunshine. No sense of rush, easy breathing taking a slow long walk by myself. This 15mins would be a me-to-me session. I answer only to myself and all that accompanies me are my thoughts. The only time of the day where i feel it's finally not difficult to be me. I'm just me. And i'm starting to like myself more. Nothing else matters, i feel free from the world, no expectations, no hurts, no rush to somewhere, no pain, no fear, no tears.

but i can't do that anymore, so don't ask me why i'm stoning when i'm with you and thereafter, grinning from ear to ear. I'm just overwhelmed by the blessings I have in my life.

That's heaven on earth.

i miss my other kuku half. how's ya exams? my cookies ain't activated, so can't tag.

{.Your love is extravagant.}