revel in Your love.

@4/28/2007 12:18:00 PM

faith sees the invinsible, believes the incredible, receives the impossible.

awaiting the miracles in my life.

just wait and see cuz it's happening every now and then, u just won't wanna to be missing out.

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@4/25/2007 07:18:00 PM

was reading this article entitled 'Guarding your heart'.

" To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart
will certainly be wrung and possibly be broken ... The only place
outside Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the
dangers and perturbations of love is Hell. "

i wont deny it sounds perpetually deep, but how true is it, that if you've never gotten hurt, how can you say u've ever loved?

'there will often be fears, misgivings and hurts as we grasp what it means to be an imperfect person who deeply loves an imperfect person.'

so much hurt & pain but yet we all need love to nurture and grow. so howwww..

but thank God, there is God. seriously! where my heart can find safety in times of pain.

how many times have u told yourself.. i'm not going to go through anymore break-ups, i'm not going through any of that sh*tty pain, not going to hurt or cry anymore.

well, i did, just a while ago.

but i realise that the pain i've been through, has made me stronger, has made me more daring to open up once again even more to another imperfect soul, just wanting to trust and having faith that indeed there is someone out there just for me.

guarding my heart yet being vulnerable to heart you.

fiducia*

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@1/04/2007 01:00:00 PM

i can't comprehend what i'm feeling inside. as the day to leave for timor leste draws closer, the words of political unrest, civil strife, war, fights, people asking for more more money as we get taken advantaged by.

physically, missionaries come back with hep A, dengue fever, malaria. having taken 5 jabs and malaria pills, the back of my mind says it will be fine. however,
the living conditions there, having to scoop water from the mountain area to your bathroom to take a cold shower is quite exciting. The 'drink only bottled water' command is quite scary la, like what if someone dope my drink with mountain water. cuz unbottled water causes an infected wound to be close to being amputated (true story). daddy says try not to eat the food there, cause no matter what still get diahorrea. (bring along survivor kit!) my thoughts may be quite silly la but still.

what if the performance falls, what if the words just don't come out of my mouth, what if i'm chosen to preach, what if they don't smile? God, please don't leave me alone k.

indeed, if i say i'm not scared, i'm lying.

as i pack my bag and seek the Lord for His guidance and love.

He said to me,

"Don't be afraid; just believe." mark 5:36

sometimes i feel, ain't human kinda useless?! i mean we are, just that we try to make ourselves look good by proving we can do this and that, but in actual fact, we can't do anything without Him. We can't breathe if He don't provide us with air and a nose and lungs etc.

But this time, why is it that we always doubt? we know that of cuz He is great and mighty and makes everything possible. After all that He has done, what I can do is to trust Him right.

why is it that we always have to be afraid, filled with fear when perfect love is all we have and need to cast out all fear?

why is it that when people poke us with negative comments we tend to take it to heart and think so little of ourselves and feel bad about it when in actual fact we are?

even tho' this time there may be civil unrest in the nation, with You there will hope, there is peace, and there is love. I know that You care for this nation and has chosen me to be Your hand of encouragement and love to them. I want to keep believing in You. I want to build a climate of faith to invite Your unlimited power and provision for this people that You love, the villagers of Kamalelara. Comfort me and strengthen me in the way that only You can, Lord. Teach me to make everything I do everyday be a hallelujah to You. loving You. Amen.

'Till I see You - Hillsong United
The greatest love that anyone could ever known
That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul
And 'till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

With all I am I'll live to see Your kingdom come
And in my heart I pray You'd let Your will be done
And 'till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

I will live to love You
I will live to bring You praise
I will live a child in awe of You

You are a voice that called the universe to be
You are the whisper in my heart that speaks to me
And 'till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

You alone are God of all
You alone are worthy, Lord
And with all I am, my soul will bless Your name

to the cross i run.

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